Je t’aime

I am taking a self-mandated break from working. Sometimes I allow myself a break, but that never works out well. The guilt and anxiety about not pushing the needle forward is just as pervasive and taxing as actually working.

I am thinking that I have been so turned around since the beginning of this pandemic, and so absorbed with work, that stopping to think about it and reflect on it– thinking about next steps– it’s dizzying.

Before Pandemic

Right before the lockdown, I celebrated 6 months of NYC by seeing Jane Birken at the Beacon Theatre. As I watched her that night, it was really something to watch her take in the crowd, she savoured it. Her ovation seemed to be half as long as the show, she kept leaving and coming back to bow and to bask in the applause. She was not letting the moment slip through her fingers, all of these people together- did she know something we didn’t?

Certainly, in the very least, she knew not to take it for granted.

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I am so tired that I want you to speak to me. How have you been? What are you grateful for? What have you learned about yourself in these last few months? What have you been taking for granted?

Here is a not amazing cover of Chicago by Sufjan Stevens.